You know, this whole time I've been blaming myself for holding back. I've been sure that my instinct was to open up, that my anxiety and fear were getting in the way. Not so. I wanted to open up, but my intuition was telling me not to, that it wasn't safe. I realized this while I was giving Bo the case for not continuing, but YJ helped me internalize it. She actually went further, characterizing me as "more ready" as opposed to less, which seems to be true but is a jarring revelation.
I knew something wasn't right, but I automatically discounted it. Time and time again I'm seeing how trustworthy my instincts are. If only I could believe in them.
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