Yeah.

Things lately:

Had a blast with Sam and Kyle last weekend. Schubert's, whiskey, art shows, performances, puking out of the window of the Ecocab... wait, what? Actually, that wasn't me. I just blacked out for two hours. It was fun, though. Definitely out of the ordinary for me these days, but a great break from all the stress.

Making progress on my AR. Picking up clients. Making plans.

Lots of things happening. It was a harrowing weekend. I should probably open up about it to someone that's not in the middle of it, someone who is geographically removed. I'm handling myself. Every second is worth it.

Tonight I studied at Empire, ate a burrito, jerked off, watched Treme and AI and Cake Boss at YJ's in between sipping a Summerfest and smoking with Jeff and Armando. It was pleasant. I feel relaxed now.

Tomorrow: session, AR exam, homework, shift, class meeting, run-through for the trunk show I'm modeling in, Iron Man 2, more AR work. No breaks. I always take on too much.

Feeling confused and bittersweet. What does it all mean? What do I want out of this? For now I'm content to see it through and keep in the moment. Progress.

Oh yeah, I realized again that I'm addicted to encouraging people's interest in me.